EDifiED is BACK B****ES!

Good day Earth!

It's been a while since my last post and I don't really know what's exactly on my mind why I instigated myself to do blogging again....

Well, apparently I just really wanted to share a life lesson I have learned just recently - Life is an ongoing process, you can't rewind things up.

I know I've been too wrapped up with so many things. I never complain, I'm not that type of person to do so. I always set my totality to embrace positivity. When you go through trials of life, and you know that you've experienced so many things you are confident enough. However, sometimes that confidence is just like a process of masking. It's like one's perception of a strong facade when indeed, the internal is not. That's exactly what I feel. Last night I had a serious talk with my best buddy, I told him what I feel these past few days and he knows the fact that I've tasted life far more than anybody he knows I guess.

He derided me in return. This is what he said: "Alam mo pare hedonic ka eh. Na-observe ko lang talaga sa iyo. Gusto mo lagi pleasure. "

Wow man! That was the punch in the head I was waiting for. It really woke me up. A fine reality check. I never assessed myself to be like that. But I guess he was right. I yearn for those things, those PLEASURABLE things that time itself can't bring back. So, I was pacified that the painful reality dictionary defines PAST as PAST. I can never make it future nor present.

Funny how such freaking lines of Lady GaGA reverbirates in my head all the while, GAGA OHH LALA ROMA ROMA GAGA OOOH LA LOVE. BAD ROMANCE. wtf?! I'm on my way to my university, ciao guys! :) Thank you pareng BITCHell ay este MITCHELL. I owe you another one.

stunned.

It's been a while.
The hiatus of time twirled every single thing into my freaking mind. I lost my aspirations, and interest (which includes updating posts). I was like a sore loser. I never knew that such personal problems could really drown you in your safe zone. I was thoroughly stunned because I was becoming not me anymore. My friends knew about this, I've had my break-up recently, I've had my problems on academics which could possibly brought failure to maintain my scholarship, I've had my skeletons in the closet (which my 2 true friends knew about), I've had this friggin' stress because of the consequences of the occurrence of the recent calamity. My clothes, books, drawings, cp, family's appliances, savings and all that were swept away in just a snap of the anger of nature (ONDOY). I'm out of energy. I don't want to be dramatic but then I can't really get over with those things. I don't know where to put myself anymore., BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO.

It's like finding the pieces of puzzle again and bringing them all back as one. I hope it's for the better this time. Gratitude to my obese amigo (MITCHELL a.k.a AZA) for the company amidst the downs and lows. And most importantly to God.


Again, having a hard time could really suck all the essence out of me. I'm trying my best to f****ing live this life. amf.

We thank you, Ma'am Cory.

Ex-president Maria Corazon "Cory" Cojuangco Aquino's death on August 1, 2009 saddened everyone. She may have departed this physical world but her legacy and entity as an iconic empowered woman (known as the first female president in our country so as in our continent Asia) will never be forgotten. She honed our country into a drastic transition and without her effort to continue the legacy of her late husband Sen. Benigno "Ninoy" Aquino, I don't think our generation could have possibly achieved its present state. She was an icon I used to read through pages in my history books way back when I was in elementary. She was an inspiring story used to narrate by my parents and relatives before, yet she is more than that. She is way better than that and I know everyone knows that particulary to those people who experienced her governance as the 11th President of the Philippines from 1986-1992. Her strong will to change our country into a better one never stops even her term ended many years before. She is of great importance in our country. Her devotion to achieve progress thru revitalizing the democracy, economic and political competency and all that is an ineffable encomium- I can't find words to praise such righteous act. Tomorrow, is a day for us to be reunited. Amidst the heart-breaking fact, we thank you Ma'am Cory.

"Love is the simplest weapon that gets us going in this challenging and chaotic journey we call life."


-EDifiED.

Just stand still.

The ticking of the clock alarms you.
Sadness, Happiness and the like are just inches away before you.
Harsh reality is consistently becoming an itch to your skin.
You're becoming dissatisfied but aware.

Chaos is engulfing your very essence;
Whilst virtues and vices do their parts.

Everything can be as vague as doubts
Everything can be as vivid as dreams

You do live in the life of perplexity.
Just stand still.

LiFe.

"Life is a ticket to a whimsical roller coaster.
Full of mysteries and uncertainties waiting to be journeyed upon.

And the only way you can have fun is to ride it with your loved ones. "


-EDifiED.

One last try.

Last week me and my friends were invited to a fiesta at my friend's house.


Certainly, it's not a one-jeepney ride destination. The location of their house is in Bocaue, Bulacan. We arrived at their place at noon time and mind you the foods were delectable . I love munching to that Beef Broccoli (specialty of learni's dad ). One of my aim is to take great photos on the fiesta and I really did not disappoint my expectations. What disappointed me is my freaking cellular phone (Sony P1i) and my dumbness. I am editing the pictures to enhance the shot when I accidentally deleted all of them... Funny how the first two lines of Brian McKnight's song keep on rewinding on my mind.
It says "My shuttered dreams and broken heart..." I am really upset that time.
And the hell of the matter was that even a one good shot ( THE MUCH-AWAITED EVENT in the said fiesta which was the PAGODA DISPLAY on the creek) that I'm crossing my finger for that moment to be recovered did not happen apparently. LESSON LEARNED: BE SMART ENOUGH TO AVOID ERRORS!





I really hate myself for that and I knew my friends were also upset about what happened, As strong-headed and determined, I never gave up the idea to take a shot again even if it's late. On our way home I instigated everyone to journey across the muddy and dirty road to take a closer look to the boats after the Pagoda display. And here is my one last attempt to make up for the fiasco :)