EDifiED is BACK B****ES!

Good day Earth!

It's been a while since my last post and I don't really know what's exactly on my mind why I instigated myself to do blogging again....

Well, apparently I just really wanted to share a life lesson I have learned just recently - Life is an ongoing process, you can't rewind things up.

I know I've been too wrapped up with so many things. I never complain, I'm not that type of person to do so. I always set my totality to embrace positivity. When you go through trials of life, and you know that you've experienced so many things you are confident enough. However, sometimes that confidence is just like a process of masking. It's like one's perception of a strong facade when indeed, the internal is not. That's exactly what I feel. Last night I had a serious talk with my best buddy, I told him what I feel these past few days and he knows the fact that I've tasted life far more than anybody he knows I guess.

He derided me in return. This is what he said: "Alam mo pare hedonic ka eh. Na-observe ko lang talaga sa iyo. Gusto mo lagi pleasure. "

Wow man! That was the punch in the head I was waiting for. It really woke me up. A fine reality check. I never assessed myself to be like that. But I guess he was right. I yearn for those things, those PLEASURABLE things that time itself can't bring back. So, I was pacified that the painful reality dictionary defines PAST as PAST. I can never make it future nor present.

Funny how such freaking lines of Lady GaGA reverbirates in my head all the while, GAGA OHH LALA ROMA ROMA GAGA OOOH LA LOVE. BAD ROMANCE. wtf?! I'm on my way to my university, ciao guys! :) Thank you pareng BITCHell ay este MITCHELL. I owe you another one.

stunned.

It's been a while.
The hiatus of time twirled every single thing into my freaking mind. I lost my aspirations, and interest (which includes updating posts). I was like a sore loser. I never knew that such personal problems could really drown you in your safe zone. I was thoroughly stunned because I was becoming not me anymore. My friends knew about this, I've had my break-up recently, I've had my problems on academics which could possibly brought failure to maintain my scholarship, I've had my skeletons in the closet (which my 2 true friends knew about), I've had this friggin' stress because of the consequences of the occurrence of the recent calamity. My clothes, books, drawings, cp, family's appliances, savings and all that were swept away in just a snap of the anger of nature (ONDOY). I'm out of energy. I don't want to be dramatic but then I can't really get over with those things. I don't know where to put myself anymore., BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO.

It's like finding the pieces of puzzle again and bringing them all back as one. I hope it's for the better this time. Gratitude to my obese amigo (MITCHELL a.k.a AZA) for the company amidst the downs and lows. And most importantly to God.


Again, having a hard time could really suck all the essence out of me. I'm trying my best to f****ing live this life. amf.

We thank you, Ma'am Cory.

Ex-president Maria Corazon "Cory" Cojuangco Aquino's death on August 1, 2009 saddened everyone. She may have departed this physical world but her legacy and entity as an iconic empowered woman (known as the first female president in our country so as in our continent Asia) will never be forgotten. She honed our country into a drastic transition and without her effort to continue the legacy of her late husband Sen. Benigno "Ninoy" Aquino, I don't think our generation could have possibly achieved its present state. She was an icon I used to read through pages in my history books way back when I was in elementary. She was an inspiring story used to narrate by my parents and relatives before, yet she is more than that. She is way better than that and I know everyone knows that particulary to those people who experienced her governance as the 11th President of the Philippines from 1986-1992. Her strong will to change our country into a better one never stops even her term ended many years before. She is of great importance in our country. Her devotion to achieve progress thru revitalizing the democracy, economic and political competency and all that is an ineffable encomium- I can't find words to praise such righteous act. Tomorrow, is a day for us to be reunited. Amidst the heart-breaking fact, we thank you Ma'am Cory.

"Love is the simplest weapon that gets us going in this challenging and chaotic journey we call life."


-EDifiED.

Just stand still.

The ticking of the clock alarms you.
Sadness, Happiness and the like are just inches away before you.
Harsh reality is consistently becoming an itch to your skin.
You're becoming dissatisfied but aware.

Chaos is engulfing your very essence;
Whilst virtues and vices do their parts.

Everything can be as vague as doubts
Everything can be as vivid as dreams

You do live in the life of perplexity.
Just stand still.

LiFe.

"Life is a ticket to a whimsical roller coaster.
Full of mysteries and uncertainties waiting to be journeyed upon.

And the only way you can have fun is to ride it with your loved ones. "


-EDifiED.

One last try.

Last week me and my friends were invited to a fiesta at my friend's house.


Certainly, it's not a one-jeepney ride destination. The location of their house is in Bocaue, Bulacan. We arrived at their place at noon time and mind you the foods were delectable . I love munching to that Beef Broccoli (specialty of learni's dad ). One of my aim is to take great photos on the fiesta and I really did not disappoint my expectations. What disappointed me is my freaking cellular phone (Sony P1i) and my dumbness. I am editing the pictures to enhance the shot when I accidentally deleted all of them... Funny how the first two lines of Brian McKnight's song keep on rewinding on my mind.
It says "My shuttered dreams and broken heart..." I am really upset that time.
And the hell of the matter was that even a one good shot ( THE MUCH-AWAITED EVENT in the said fiesta which was the PAGODA DISPLAY on the creek) that I'm crossing my finger for that moment to be recovered did not happen apparently. LESSON LEARNED: BE SMART ENOUGH TO AVOID ERRORS!





I really hate myself for that and I knew my friends were also upset about what happened, As strong-headed and determined, I never gave up the idea to take a shot again even if it's late. On our way home I instigated everyone to journey across the muddy and dirty road to take a closer look to the boats after the Pagoda display. And here is my one last attempt to make up for the fiasco :)

TRAVEL THERAPY

Indeed, life after high school has never been the same.
Coping with changes is a challenge. College took me to newer heights. It upgraded me as an individual yet downgraded the "old" ED I used to be. I'm like being engulfed to a chaos. Looking back, I realized that the whole year I spent as a freshman was a rollercoaster ride. I need not to elaborate so many things about it but figuratively it's like an equated problem:

EVERYDAY LIFE = ( frustrated+stressed+hopeless)*uninspired

Tag it as an exaggerated description but I really felt like as if LIFE for me has become more complicated than ever. My way of living is as busy as a bee. So, I needed a break. Of course, it's human nature to seek for something enjoyable and relaxing. I became an opportunistic travel rat whenever there's a time off on my schedules. The last sembreak I've had I spent it with my barkada. We enjoyed the chilly break in Real, Quezon at the resort owned by my friend Rapi. I remember that time I was really stressed with regards to my academic standing, family, love life and so much more that I'm so fed up with the stress dwelling inside me. Obviously, it's really not my nature to be a problematic loser because I'm a vivacious type of person. I like having fun. I'm energetic eventhough i'm payatot. I know for sure my friends know my personality,,,

But then when you go through trials of life, it is inevitable to feel somehow lonely of what's happening specially when you're not the type of person who is used to feel such frustration, stress and the like. Believe me, everyone encounters the same feeling at some point of their lives.

I remember a few line in a movie that unfortunately I forgot the title, it goes something like this scenario

There's a little girl who asked her young handsome teacher "Are you lonely?"
"No, I am not. Loneliness and solitude is a man's choice..." The guy reacted. Somehow it had an effect to me up to now. I believe on that perspective, we are the ones who choose our own feelings and ideas. And whenever I feel down I seek for something that erases the melancholy.

Pink is right. "If GOD is a DJ, Life is a dancefloor; Love is a rhythm and YOU are the music."

So I never regret what I usually do in times like that. Travel is one my therapy. Something's better in store for all of us, it's just a matter of waiting patiently.

If today you feel bad, tomorrow's another chapter in your life. Here are some of my pics of my travel last summer and sembreak. Location : Quezon, Bulacan, Nueva Ecija :)

BEP- I Got a Feeling; EDifiED- I Got a Nostalgic Feeling.

The newest single of Black Eyed Peas entitled I got a feeling made my day...

I've been listening to this the whole day and it somehow reminds me of the gimiks I've had before.
Amazingly, every lyrics is precisely like a spell that brings back nostalgic moments I had. The dancing-til-dawn-party-til-we-drop- spend-it-all-flirt-all-you-can-Enjoy-life-in-the-dance-floor thing. haha I love the part:

"Tonight's the night

let's live it up
I got my money
let's spend it all..."

The party beat makes me bang my head. What a feeling? I remember One Party I enjoyed with my new friends in college. We had a great time. As in real great time.

We partied at The Prince of Jaipur beside the famous embassy, we were all boys and "single" for that particular moment...haha and i greatly know as the day after that party comes, we'll be back to our own imperfect selves. Busy. Stressed. Some, committed. Some, sober. But certainly after all, broke :(

We danced separately as it is the barkada's mission- Go and fish your own. diskarte ka mag-isa boy. Well, I am committed and the thought of flirting with some party girls doesn't anticipate me. whooo! asus?! sure? Well, I am not a cheater, but I admit as I mentioned I do get easily attracted but not to the point of risking my relationship. I acquired acquaintances with really pretty girls. I remembered this stunning petite lady I used to danced with at one dance music at the party and she's really really adorable. :) If i am not mistaken, her name's Zara. And I know as my gracious opportunity of dancing and talking with this lovely lady is more than enough to raise the tension amongst my comrades as for sure their egos will be challenged. Bring it on boys haha I'm up for something good.

"Ano na balita sa inyo? Kayo tong mga single asan diskarte nyo?" I devilishly thought to my friends.

But when my late actions took place to check them. OMG! as in OMG! I saw Roneil grinning like a hungry "playing good" guy as he took steps upward the VIP. It turned out that I lost the competition, He's up for something better. He was invited in the VIP to party with a more beautiful party girl. Grrr. My friends were great. They really do have their own diskartes. Afterwards, we united to make up for the last dance. Dance for our friendship. We partied like a rockstar!

Those were the moments wherein you feel very nostalgic. The song really reminded me of one of my best nights. A glimpse to the glittered past. And to my new barkada, although one of them will be residing abroad, some transferred in other universities, some shifted schedules, I really miss our bonding. I'll be looking forward to meet you all up :)

EdifiED's first BLOG

Certainly, This is my First Blog ever.

This will be my starting point to share what's on my freaking mind, My God- given talents and most improtantly of even in the midst of the reality that I can only share my facade as a blogger, those little courageous thoughts of somehow edifying and encouraging others to enjoy LIFE as it is is an adventure i'd like to take.

I am EDifiED. what's with the unrighteousness of capitalization of that simple word "edified"? Well, to tell you honestly, It is connected with My Name -ED. Or Eduardo Giulliano if you prefer to know my shorter first name :) I don't want to go through that typical self description as I want to be different but not entirely opposed to conventionalistic ways, the thought of explaining the usual this' and that's really alleviate my coolness. That's so true.

Well, I am 18 years of age. I love travelling. I love to love. I am a "he-bitch" as what my freaking friends used to define me, well one of my best buddies named Michael is also tagged as a "he-whore", so it's like okay. I don't really know why they have the guts to create an annoying term to tease me but i guess it's because sometimes I marvel at those Sensual Rouge Lips, Alluring Long Legs of any Teenage Hotties I see everywhere especially college girls. I do get easily attracted in many ways. And Arts is a big part of it. I appreciate it. I adore forms and beauty. I am addicted of staring at beautiful angles of the nature and anything else as long as it possesses the "it" factor.

I am an aspiring manga artist. I'll be blogging for my artworks soon.

I am also an aspiring photographer. Here are some of my photos. Hope you'll like it.