stunned.

It's been a while.
The hiatus of time twirled every single thing into my freaking mind. I lost my aspirations, and interest (which includes updating posts). I was like a sore loser. I never knew that such personal problems could really drown you in your safe zone. I was thoroughly stunned because I was becoming not me anymore. My friends knew about this, I've had my break-up recently, I've had my problems on academics which could possibly brought failure to maintain my scholarship, I've had my skeletons in the closet (which my 2 true friends knew about), I've had this friggin' stress because of the consequences of the occurrence of the recent calamity. My clothes, books, drawings, cp, family's appliances, savings and all that were swept away in just a snap of the anger of nature (ONDOY). I'm out of energy. I don't want to be dramatic but then I can't really get over with those things. I don't know where to put myself anymore., BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO.

It's like finding the pieces of puzzle again and bringing them all back as one. I hope it's for the better this time. Gratitude to my obese amigo (MITCHELL a.k.a AZA) for the company amidst the downs and lows. And most importantly to God.


Again, having a hard time could really suck all the essence out of me. I'm trying my best to f****ing live this life. amf.